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Name: Trissy
Location: United States
Gender: Female
Interests: sports, gameing, stripping, DDR, reading, being hyper, haveing fun, being me, *shoe football*, yelling, bringing pans to school *mallory* you now what i mean, "i still made the volleyball team", *its the roth run*, "I miss you more" *click*, "i was saved from korea", does happpy dance, singing in the shower, *antalope hallway*, " all the things i needed to no i learned from the people trapped in my basement", *do you want to be in my basement?*, run run run antalope run form the lions, writing on people and myself, talking on the phone in the shower, WASTING SPACE, *......so there was this one guy at my house and he ws in my room......*takeing showers, smileing, being me, *can you dance i can dance....I found the inner dance*, running in the hall, chapstick *that suff saves my life*, RPG's, music *but i dont no much bouts it*, "stupid wall", having a good time, "if i fall go get ice. where are we gonna get ice? sit in the puddle", *sex tent*, *i can pool dance better than you can*, ...
Expertise: being me, yelling, talking on the phone, takeing pictures, takeing showers, smileing, haveing fun, being and antalope, and what ever is crazy fun and will keep my attention.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  hampstersRscary
Yahoo:  yellow_sponge13
Member Since:
9/3/2005
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| So hello again.... so i only have like 4 more days and i graduate... yes yes its kinda exciting i guess but not really IDK seems like everyone keeps asking me ...."aren't you happy your graduating? aren't you excited?" well to be honest i'm not.... its just another day.. and inveitable day in which i cannot escape... for real i want to stay in high school. I just dont want to move on i'm not scared just a bit sad all my friends are moving away. and i'm moving away to a degree yes i'll be right on campus and only like 10 min away but still imma miss everyone... and imma miss all my teachers and jounor friends and john... imma miss them all.... even though i'll only be 10 min away. so IDK Also technicaly my year is over soo over and it doesn't feel like it.. haha i feel like i'm just going on break i think its gonna hit me when i have to go to MSU next year.. lol so 3 months from now also i should be getting my car toamrrow... its soo happy about this... i finally have my licence and shit and its soo great.... i cant wait to have my car now.... Also me and john are doing wonderful... we had some hard times recently but were sooo good now and i love him to death do me part. I have promised my heart i will not break up with him soo were gonna try and make it as long as possible... who knows how long it'll be i just know that right now RIGHT this very minute i love him with all my heart and soul..... i'd do anything for him so those were just somethings i needed to get off my chest and shit so yea.. leave me some love.. | | |
| AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH sooooooo things in life are pretty good i guess. i'm actualy in a homework mood and that is great cause i really need to start doing shit.... like for real... life's good me and mallory are cool, my grades are getting better, i have a wonderful boyfriend, graduations comming up, spring is here and i love it, me and my mom are actualy on good terms WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT, yea, the AP test are comming and i'm studying like crazy lol, IDK it just feels right lol, very right, i have no drama and no problems just me and the path i'm on to success lol.... i cant wait for summer the sun the beach sleepin in, i'm gonna be able to see my boyfriend like everyday, imma get to roller blade, SUMMER SOFTBALL, SOFTBALL in general AHH its really lite a fire under my ass, gosh i was dying without a sport man oh man... god i love that sport. like for real..... yea speakin of which i have to pitch today...... lol..... man life=good how much better can it get?????? only straight A's could make it better... lol so yea... anyway i love you all and if you wanna hang or talk just call me on my cell.. 230 4207 TRISSY -------> out | | |
|       GOD i cant stand it, i hate her i hate my mom sooooo fucking much i no she fuckin hates me i screwed up her life since day one.....i was a mistake ONE FUCKING HUGE MISTAKE........ she only had enough love to not get me fuckin aborted WTF.... she should have.... i've just fucked up her life FUCKED UP............... i'm a complete SCREW UP a fucking SCREW UP...... i cant be perfect for her how she wants me to be..... she wants me to be PERFECT IN EVERY FUCKING WAY and i cant be that is just not me... i want to have a life outside of school and her OMG.... i cant stand being the SCREW up alll the time... i hate it everything is my fualt or i'm the one that always has the ATTITUDE.... shes allways had an attitude every day of my life...... WTF and she wonders were i get it from look in the mirror BITCH....
god damn i'm just a fuckin screw up..... i cant keep a boyfriend, i cant keep my friends for very long, i say the worong things, i dont get the grades, i can always do better in every aspect of my life,.............i could be more girly, more pretty, more skinny, more EVERYTHING, AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i cant handle her anymore, and then i say i want to move away and go to college and shes all like "oh so you hate me now?" and i'm like no i dont and i've been trying to tell her for MONTHES i dont fucking hate her and she dont get it and still thinks i hate her WTF so i've stopped trying to prove i love her.... i hope she fucking thinks i hate her cause that is how i feel, i feel like i hate her,,, and that i dont FUCKING BELONG IN MY FAMILY....... i dont BELONG.............. WTF IS WRONG WITH ME this fucking screw up | | |
| i stil feel him i still smell him i even dream about him..... i talked abou him in class today.... wat is wrong with me? i dont want to feel this way anymore....... i want to leave him behind and everything with him. i cant stand that after all that has been done i still feel soemthing. i thought i was over it and just one day one moment in one class took me back and caught my breath in my throat. How can the mear thought of him take my breath away? how can i want to feel like this again when i no NOTHING will come of it and its stupid to even feel this way. there is nothing and i yet i have so much hate for him and i hate that i have hate and yet i do. I wonder if he has hate for me? i wonder if he ever even thinks about me? i dougt it hes all warpped up in his life with out me..... there wuold be no reason to revisit the past... he would probaly think shit happens and move on there is no point in dwelling about hte past... and yet i loved him for so long and i cannot ven take his own adive i cant just forget the past i'm trying so hard and its not working.... i hate it ... i cant wait to go into the military... i'll be off to texas and then nothing will stop me......... i will have left this world behind a membory to store away in a file in the back of my mind nothing more nothing less...... he'll be nothing more than a whisper from a dream. *Sigh* part of me a big part of me wishes YES YES soon have it hapen now for gods sake and soem other small part still longs for the warmth and happiness he gave me..... he put my world and chaos and yet made it stable in another way..... he gave me love......... and yet i think it was more friendship he gave me and understanding and compassion..... | | |
| Damn i hate it i hate ur smile ur touch ur kiss even ur glance... i think about it and long for it.. how can u long for something that wil never be? how do you care for someone so deep.... how do you care for many someones in the same fasion....knowing it'll never be nowing you will be alone and left to rot.... no one wants you and that is how it is.... he turned his back on you and for you it was the world..... you might as well have had the whole world come along and say ur worth nothing becasue ur not worth his time..... ur never will be and no one knows how you feel.... gosh you hate urslef...... ur grades ur family ur hope its all gone..... pretty soon you will be gone..... there is no point in living... giong to school just makes you more and more depressed with each day that goes by wat is the point any mroe when you lost him you lost everything..... everything and everyone.... its all dead to you.......... y do you feel this way? y do you still care about all of them and everything,..... y dont you jsut give up??? wat drives you to keep moving on with life and careing???? its all annoying stuipd rutine now everythings the same the same conversatino the same heart broken self........ the same subjects over and over there is no excitement anymore..............NOTHING gahhhh i need to get out... damnit someone come kill me.... i guess i cant do it myself so someone else needs to do it............... | | |
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AHHHHHH SOOO i'm TRISSY or Trisalaya I go to sextong high school Class of 2008 whoop whoop i play many sports and do many activities with the school.... i'm not like some retarted girl who never wants to get dirty or playa game or sit down in gym class and fail.... i'm extremely smart and i'm not trying to sound consided but i am.... i'm on the honor roll and in honor and AP classes.... i'm in love with AP CHEM (no not a boy) boys have just fucked up my life all the time..... AIM HAMPSTERSRSCARY my best friend is...... MALLORY i love this girl to death we have been through everything with each other EVERYTHING WASTING SPACE, i'm very random i like anime, music, sports, swimming, the rain, jello, bouncy balls, and duckies, UM ECT i love monster and glow stix.... i want to in into the US AIR FORCEanymore ASK!!!! 